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Saturday, January 29, 2011

Back to December..



I'm so glad you made time to see me
How's life, tell me how's your family
I haven't seen them in a while
You've been good, busier than ever
We small talk, work and the weather
Your guard is up and I know why

'Cause the last time you saw me
Still burned in the back of your mind
You gave me roses and I left them there to die

So this is me swallowing my pride,
Standing in front of you saying I'm sorry for that night
And I'd go back to December all the time
It turns out freedom ain't nothing but missing you
Wishing that I'd realized what I had when you were mine
I'd go back to December, turn around and make it alright
I go back to December all the time

These days I haven't been sleeping
Staying up playing back myself leaving
When your birthday passed and I didn't call
And I think about summer, all the beautiful times
I watched you laughing from the passenger side and
Realized I loved you in the fall
And then the cold came, the dark days when fear crept into my mind
You gave me all your love and all I gave you was goodbye

So this is me swallowing my pride,
Standing in front of you saying I'm sorry for that night
And I'd go back to December all the time
It turns out freedom ain't nothing but missing you
Wishing that I'd realized what I had when you were mine
I'd go back to December, turn around and change my own mind
I go back to December all the time

I miss your tan skin, your sweet smile, so good to me, so right
And how you held me in your arms that September night,
The first time you ever saw me cry
Maybe this is wishful thinking
Probably mindless dreaming
If we loved again I swear I'd love you right

I'd go back in time and change it but I can't
So if the chain is on your door, I understand

But this is me swallowing my pride,
Standing in front of you saying I'm sorry for that night
And I'd go back to December
It turns out freedom ain't nothing but missing you
Wishing that I'd realized what I had when you were mine and
I go back to December, turn around and make it alright and
I go back to December, turn around and change my own mind and
I go back to December all the time

Wednesday, January 26, 2011

aRiNi....25012011

xde mudnye arini..byk isi karangan lam otak tuk d olahkan tp xde mud nyeee...risau....resah...takut...x yakin...smuenye gara2 nk blk kg mgu ni...cuti CNY for a week...hmmm cmne nnti...alone or wit somebody...aku xtau...huuuu sesaknye nafas bila tringat...rs spt ingin menangis bila pk..smoga Tuhan lembutkan hatinya...amin...

Tuesday, January 18, 2011

Senin yg LeMaUwwww

erghh nape tah arini ngntuk giler..pdhal dh pkai bju terang2 kunun nk amik mood ceria bile kje d ari monday blues ni..tp x jugak..asyik sangappp jerk...sudahnye aku ttido ttido ttidooo jerk..eee x muley jadik..gara2 xcukop tido ar nih..

4.30am tjaga tdgr irama yg sgt kuat tp dia tido mati..arghh!!
5.30am tjaga lagi oleh irama yg kuat jugak..aduyaii tensen gue..
6.00am lgsung x dgr jam loceng hp aku akibat byk kali tjaga oleh irama x d undang..
6.30am bru tjga tp ala2 malas sbb ngntuk giler & sgt sejuk..tp tpksa bgn jugak tuk mndi dan utk menunaikan kewajipan sbg umat islam dan jugak poie kije laaa..
7.29am smpai opis tros p surau...amik wudhu' solat sunat dhuha..
8.00am mekap & bsiap..weeee
8.30am msuk gua dgn keadaan yg sgt letih dan mngntuk..huarghhhh


sudahnye cmni la aku jd nye

Thursday, January 6, 2011

Rindu..sgt rindu... -_-


"What did i do so wrong that u had to leave me alone "
ssungguhnya aku sgt rindukan dia..ape kabar gaknye dia..cmne agaknye keadaan dia..msih skit @ sbaliknye..

Tuhan..sembuhkan lah dia..
Tuhan..lembutkan lah hatinya..
Tuhan..peliharakan lah hubungan aku dan dia..
Tuhan..rahmatilah kehidupan aku dan dia..
Tuhan..berikanlah petunjukMu..

utk kesekian kalinya...mutiara jernih kembali gugur dr kelopak mata aku...

Ya Allah..berilah aku kekuatan..ssungguhnya aku sgt rindu..namun berilah agar rinduku padanya tidak melebihi rinduku padaMu Ya Allah...

Cuaca yg menakutkan...bg aku je ler..hehe


semalam petang abes kje kt kul 7..ari slase klu meeting ngn dato' mmg salu blk lmbt..igt nk kuar awl tp xsmpat lak nk larikk..pas punch out kuar dr bgnn opish..upenye ujan yg sgt lebat...aku pon nek atas blk amik sekaki payung(gune ayat penjodoh bilangan plak macek)trun je nk p kt keta ttibe...1 pancaran cahaya di ikuti dgn bunyi GADABOMMM!! makkk tokojut den..guruh & kilat yg sememangnya sgt aku takuti dr kecik..sgt fobia dgn 2 bnde ciptaan Ilahi tu..

so aku kuatkan smgt bpayung lam ujan yg sgt lebat ngn bunyi guruh kilat yg sgt kuat..prasaan aku time tu Tuhan je yg tau...aku hanya mampu beristighfar & mengucapkan Lailahaillallah dlm hati..smoga Tuhan mlindungi aku dlm keadaan cmtu..smpai je kt keta aku hempas cmtu je wiper kt cermin keta yg mmg aku salu angkt sbb tkut rosak bile cuaca panas...then aku cpt2 msuk keta...tp basah lencun gaks..abeh blazer aku bsh...seat ladybird pn basah..xpe nnti kite sembur ngn febreeze ye dbird..

time nk blk tu aku juz kuatkn smgt je nk drive..klu sblm ni ade peneman bile time2 cmni sbb aku xkn drive sndiri..so skrg tpksa indipendent...aku gagahkan juge kaki tekan minyak dgn harapan cpt la smpai umah..huhu den x dayo nk harung hujan lebat cmni..tiap kali kilat aku pejam mata celik mata pejam mata celik mata pejam mata celik mata smpai la umah..Tuhan je yg tau btape tkut nye aku time tu..lam ms yg same ade gak prasaan sedih..knape aku kne hadapi smue ni sorg2...aku tlalu rindukan dia..klu dia msih ada..aku x kne lalui smue ni sorg diri..tp yg nyata aku sgt tkut..tkut pd guruh dan kilat..pelikkan..heheh..but I've to b strong..



akhirnya agak2 lam 20 min jugak la aku drive dlm keadaan yg sgt slow dan beware pd knderaan d dpn blkg kiri dan kanan...Alhamdulillah slmt smpai d taman desa saujana hehe wpon ms tu ujan still lebat disusuli kilat dn guruh yg mnakutkan..

smoga ptg ni x jd cm smlm..huuu sgt takut...sgt fobia...tu je la entry tuk kali ni..cuaca yg menakutkan...kikiki...

Wednesday, January 5, 2011

NoT Feeling WeLL...


huhu..arini got seseme plus cm nk demam gara2 berhujan ptg smlm time nk p rehearsal koir...erghhh tu la blagak sgt..skali kne haaa hamikkk...pastu ptg tu p alamanda cr brg dpur sket..ajak 'cacing' wat teman shopping so lam ms yg same leh mntk tlg dia angkat brg cz mmg dh tau xdaya nk angkat ssorg..tp dia tanak plaks..so tpksa la p sorg2 pastu 2x kne hangkut brg2 yg berat tu hasil dr pancingan d carrefour dari eskalator ke parking kete...raso nk pitam time tu jugak..uhhh pdhl rsenye xde la byk sgt bli..brg2 asas stok tuk 3bln lbih je..biase la aku ni klu pkai brg mmg thn lame..wahaha..smpai umah trus lembik...urghh...
tp tu la..sblm ni klu kne ujan pon bdn aku still kebal..xde effect lgsung..tp kali nih cm plik plak..bru je sembuh dr flu 2mgu lepas..ni dh kene balik..aduyaii...antibodi dh makin kurg..xpe tu tandanya Tuhan sygkan aku..heheh pujuk diri sndiri...koir td pon xde smgt..xlarat nk lontarkan suare..tp sgt xbes..skit kpala xlarat..cpt penat ngn rase sgt sejukkk wpun dh pkai blazer..arghh..cpt la sembuh amin..amin

Tuesday, January 4, 2011

WeLL Come 2011...


03.01.2011 - Permulaan hari kerja pada tahun yg baru...cm xde pape je...ppagi sejuk cmbiasa..perasaan arini..ntah..biase2 je..tp ade gak yg pelik...tamo tepedaya lagi..sory ye dik non...

.hmmm azam baru?? hmmm nk capai misi penting taun lepas yg xtcapai ag tuh..hehehe..smoga taun ni tcapai dgn rahmat dan izinNYA..amin...hehehe

laaagiii...wish alwiz happy for being myself...smoga aku d berikan kesihatan yg lebih baik..sembuh dr penyakit..d permudahkan segala urusan dunia & akhirat...menjadi muslimah yg solehah & beriman..smoga d pertemukan jodoh yg baik yg dpt menjaga, mengasihi dan melayani aku selayaknya aku seorang wanita & menerima aku seadanya & dpt membimbing aku ke jalanNYA..Insyaallah...amin..